scrabbled by james at 7:38 PM  
and the archives need to be adjusted.
if you want to see old stuff, it's all still available at the old location, but I'm gonna get that linked up properly here soon too.

scrabbled by james at 7:33 PM  
so I've finally gotten around to updating my site. after about two months or so. took way too long on that.

there was more I was gonna write. I know it. but I can't remember what it was. possibly look for more later.

and I'm still working on a new template. I'm tired of how this looks. rrr.

scrabbled by james at 2:17 AM  
okay, so I'm working on a new template. wait for it.

on a different note, I started this back up for a reason - essentially I wanted to write prose-style things as well as what I've got in my other journals. prose-style semi-coherent. and now it's difficult to get that off, in a way.

okay.

things have been going such in my head lately, where ideas present themselves, and an idea often is people, yeah yeah yeah. and I want to have a girl with me more and more as I see situations and vaguely flirt and comments and all these things and I just don't know what to say, too much. not all the time. things, ideas, whatever... something. I don't know entirely what I want to say. so, then.

thoughts wandering around, all sorts of things. and I really don't know how to phrase these things sometimes because it's really very nonchalant in one way but not at all in another and I just can't get it how/what I want. things are blown and unsteady in some ways. and that line doesn't really make too much sense.

so I don't know what I'm saying too much. I know of some girls that interest me in some ways, but I'm not certain quite what ways. and I have no idea what I really want to say. hrm.
this is not a subject on which I am good at being articulate.
just thoughts, ideas.... (separate though not necessarily relevant to what I'm feeling notes: I haven't had a girlfriend in about a year. I had a girlfriend before that I loved, and still love in a way, though not necessarily the same way. I don't really want a girl because 'I haven't been getting any action', because that's not really relevant in my mind. it's so insignificant, and I can cope. in my mind, that only really matters when I have a specific someone I want who is refusing me, in that it's a taunt almost, but without even the tone of a taunt. a sad taunt. and I'm not in that situation.)

so, because I can't articulate myself, I am instead going to write out the lyrics for 'madonna, sean and me' by sonic youth, off of the album 'EVOL', which is in my head:
we're gonna kill the california girls
we're gonna fire the exploding load
in the milkmaid maidenhead
we're gonna find the meaning of feeling good
and we're gonna stay there as long as we think we should
mystery train
three way plane
expressway to yr skull.

listen to the song, and it'll matter more.

scrabbled by james at 1:33 AM  
okay:
so I've decided I'm reviving this. though it's now in a different location, and I am going to redesign the way it looks. hold on.
had to make a small change; see how things are going. I plan on completely adjusting this page's design, so watch out!

in case anyone's wondering, quotation junky went on hiatus on the basis of 'I was writing in my other journal all the time.' but now, I've gotten to the point where I want to write things in a different style than that journal, and it would necessitate something else to work with. I didn't really think I needed to start up a whole new thing though, so I'm reviving this. I have no idea how revived this will be, though. it remains to be seen.

so I'm going to stop at that for now, and head on to writing real entries and redesigning this page. so here goes.